I haven't blogged for quite a while!! Not a lot happened to me and I began to resent that all of my blogs were about silly smelly boys!!! heheehehehe!!
But over the past week I have been beginning to build up my self esteem and self confidence.
On Tuesday I went out for dinner to commemorate what would have been my Grandma's 80th birthday. It was my dad's side of the family, and although I get on with my uncle and grandad, I can't stand my dad and actually hate him. I really didn't want to go out for this dinner but did it for my Grandma. I was the model, charming daughter, I was funny and pleasant and although I didn't start any conversations with him, I answered him when he talked to me.
I said to him at the end of the evening, when he tried to get all sentimental, that he was not to mistake my politeness for forgiveness that I would always be civil but I could never forgive him.
I had to give it to him though, he did try hard.
On Wednesday night I went to see JT's first paid gig. We only have one mutal friend, and that's Mr C but he couldn't go, so I went on my own!!!!!! I was very proud of myself!! I didn't know anyone there but neither did another one of JT's friends so I sat with her all evening and had a lovely time. JT was amazing and I had shivers up my spine when he was playing. It was just him and his guitar!! Totally awesome!!!
Last night I went out for dinner with Vikki, I haven't seen her for 2 weeks and we had lots to gossip about!! We went out for pizza and then went to the pub for a few cocktails!!! I was totally hammered and phoned Shaun on the way home. I have no idea what I said to him but I know I called him a wanker and hung up on him!! He's really messed me around recently, and I have only seen him once since he came down that first weekend. He doesn't text or phone anymore and when he does he still tells me empty promises!
My landlord came round this morning to fix some tiles in my bathroom. It was the first time I'd met him as everything is usually done through the letting agents. He was really lovely. We were talking about the flat and he asked if I'd be interested in buying it directly from him without agents to bump up the costs. And I said that if I was in the right financial position then I would definitely be up for it.
When he'd finished doing the tiles he said that he'd been thinking and he said that when the tenancy is up for renewal he'd scrap the agents which would mean that he would be able to reduce my rent and enable me to save up for my deposit quicker.
So I have spent the afternoon preparing to be pro-active! I'm going to book an appointment with the Halifax next week and open that 10% interest savings account. I'm going to switch my current account over to a high interest one too. I'm going to phone The Body Shop and become a rep who hosts parties at home, and over the summer I will host loads of parties and make as much money as possible. Then when I go back to school I will work whenever possible hosting parties!! This also means that I will save money as the millions of Body Shop products that I already use will be cheaper/free!!
I have also joined a market research site which send me surveys to fill in, and although I don't get paid cash for this I get points which add up and are turned into vouchers for things like Boots, Topshop, Amazon and other stuff, so although I won't be gaining money I'll be saving by not having to pay for certain things!!!!
So for the first time in a while I feel really really positive and like I can make it on my own!
It's a good feeling, and good to be back!!
XxX
fuck him, arsehole.